WHEN LETTING GO IS THE HARDEST PART.

Goodbyes made you think.

They made you realize what you've had,

what you've lost,

and what you've taken for granted.

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         Aside from having a decent job, the second thing that I thought was so hard to do, is to let go.

         Letting go of something you hold on for a long time. Letting go of something you had valued so much. Letting go of something you that made your day and night complete. Letting go of something, you never thought of giving up.

         But that is life, that is love. Sometimes, even the thing or person we thought we'll never loose can actually disappear in any unexpected place, and in any unexpected time. What's worst was when we knew all along that it has to go, yet we hold on to it. Even if it hurts us every single minute.

        But why is letting go so hard to do? Is there any easy way to move on and just forget the person? If it's love, then why is it hurting me so much?

         For sure, these are just some of the questions that are running to your mind. But the truth is, there will be no easy way to move on, and to let go. There is no such short-cut on forgetting someone.  However, thinking of the facts on why you should stop holding on to something will surely help. If it hurts so much, then why prolong the agony? If the reason why you're hurting is because somebody's taking you for granted, then why let this happen for a long time? If someone's cheating on you, then why still hold on to something you're calling a "commitment"?

         And one thing, you'll only know it's love when it hurts you. So accept the fact and just do what you have to. Never ever fail to think about yourself. This is the best way to let go and to move on.

         It's not bad to cry. To listen to the saddest, break up songs. And to reminisce what you had. But remember, somethings are worth giving up especially if it wasn't meant for you. There is ALWAYS more to life. God will always have his plans for you. So remember, life is very unexpected so better be ready with everything.

GET INSPIRED: Love yourself.

"You are amazing,

just the way you are."

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  Ever heard of Bruno Mars' song, "Just the way you are"? Feels better to hear it from someone you love right? But I think, it would be way better if you would hear it from your own.

  Yes. John Donne was right. No man really is an island. We need our friends, our family and our significant other. However, that doesn't mean that we really need them to find our happiness. I'm not saying that you should go away, isolate yourself and live your life alone miserably forever. What I'm saying is that sometimes, all it takes to be happy and contented is yourself.

  Not at all times, we are in good terms with our friends, our significant other and even our family. Sometimes, we got frustrated, irritated or angry. Sometimes, there's misunderstanding. Sometimes, there's expectations and mostly, there's failure to meet your expectations. 

  When we love, most of the time, we give out our best, give out our efforts and give out even our own precious time. And mostly, we don't need anything in return but a sight of appreciation. And by doing so, we almost forgot our own self. 

  What's worse is when you don't get any in return, not even a smell of gratification.

  Fella, if you're feeling any of those, why not take a break? Relax and review every good deed you've done to others. You don't need to get angry nor feel bad to that person. What you need to do is pamper yourself and that don't need to cost anything but a time on your own.

  Take a look at the mirror and you'll see someone who could love you more than anyone else. YES, IT IS YOU! Look at how amazing you are. Look at how good you are. Look at how God created you so great, you might even feel that there's no need for pain nor regret. 

  You are unique and productive. Live out as if you're not dependent on anyone to be happy. Life's too short to get caught up in a bad situation. Enjoy life! Enjoy your own self. Remember that there is always MORE to life. 

 Be your own inspiration. Be your own motivator. Be your own happiness. Love yourself! :)

-- IAMCAROLFIERCE

  

POETRY: LTSJ

♥♥♥

Roses are red

Violets are blue

I don't have to wait for valentine

Especially now that I found you

You have made me felt

Like a brand new person

I've never been this happy

And you gave me the reason

You made me realize

That love truly exist

I've always been cautious with it

But its only you that I can't resist

You're the only one

And there will be no other

My heart belongs only to you

Forever and ever

I'll always stay true

And that's a pact

Ill do anything

Just to work things out

But most of all I'll never get tired thanking God

For having you in my life

And I'll never stop praying for Him

To make me your wife

G

QUICK NOTE: Loving yourself

Caring for and loving yourself means 

that you're free to choose

to love another..

you're not desperate to find love, 

you aren't willing to do anything to win it,

and you won't give up your own values to keep it.

SOURCE: Teen Esteem by Dr. Pat Palmer & Melissa Alberti Froehner

SHORT STORY: THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN...

  Her lips were the sweetest. Her voice was like the angels’. I remember how she would sneak out late at night just to see me. We would go to our usual meeting place, the beach. She would lie down in my arms, exchanging sweet words and kisses. We watched the night sky, made wishes if ever we caught a shooting star in sight and talk about our dreams that we promised to achieve together. She was the first love that I ever had.

  Every night that we had were the warmest as we embrace each other. Tonight, however, is different. It was cold. Tears were flooding down our eyes. The stars didn’t gave the same glow and the beach, not like the usual romantic place.

  “I’m sorry Drew. I don’t want to hurt you anymore and I just can’t hold on to this feeling any longer.” Jasmine, my girl, covering her face, wiping every tears that are falling. “You’ve done your best and gave almost everything to me. It seems like you’re way to good enough for me. I guess you deserve someone else. Someone who’s a lot better than me”, she continued, sobbingreally loud.

  Those were the last words that I heard from her since then. And I, knowing nothing could ever bring her back, have just spent many dark nights crying, getting drunk. My friends blame her for what was happening to me, but I never did the same. I saw her with a new guy and I know she was really happy with him. So I guess it’s my fault that I lost her. I may have lack something. I know it was my fault then.

  Three months have passed and here I am, inside a bar doing the usual thing. Everything seems blurry and I was half drunk. I do not even know what’s happening, all I know is that I’m walking along this narrow aisle.

 "Excuse me! But you're blocking my way!" a cranky lady told me. It was dark so dark that I have not instantly realized that she’s a lady.

 "So? Get out! It's not yours anyway!" I yelled and was about to push her when she gave me a hard punch. I fell on the floor and was badly hurt. I did nothing in return though. She pissed me a lot yet I know she’s a lady so I did nothing in return.

  Aside from that, I remembered nothing at all that night.

  The next day’s a bad day for me. I had a hangover. My head aches a lot yet I pushed myself to get up and be ready for school.

  I am getting my stuffs inside my locker when I saw this pretty lady that caught my attention. She was short, approximately, standing 5 foot. Her hair was as black as the night and her eyes sparkle like the stars. Her lips were cherry red and her skin, fair. I know I’ve seen her before, but I can’t remember when and where. I guess she was the angel in my dream last night.

“What are you looking at, huh?” the lady asked. I do not know what to say. It felt like I was under her spell.

“Oh, nothing. Uh, have we met before? Because you look really familiar.” I asked her. I was too shy and I can’t even remember the words that I’ve said. She looked at me deeply, staring from the head down to my toe.

  “Yes, I guess we’ve met before. You’re the crazy drunk guy at the bar!”

  Now I know why she’s familiar and this is what happened on the second time that we met. She was really cranky and hard to be-friend with. I had a hard time talking to her, even knowing her name. Her attitude is unlike the girls at the school. She was just a normal girl and was quite boyish. She doesn’t flirt nor care about how she looks. That’s Sophia, an ordinary lady who doesn’t mind how people would react to her actions. The lady who does nothing but always catches my attention.

  Time passes by and I started to get to know her. She’s a black belter at Taekwondo. No wonder she punched me really well that night. She’s independent and always does things her way. Every time that we have a chance to be together, we always argue. She wanted to be always right and I just agree to everything she says. Guess she had made me fall really hard. She was really different.

  Year had passed and I confessed my hidden love. I never thought that she felt the same. We’ve been dating for three years and I could say that she wasn’t really that hard to be with. She’s very sweet and caring. She could be the girl that any man wants to have,She told me that she was just really cautious with the people around that’s why she acted like that.

  Our relationship had gone through lots of ups and downs. We do not always have that perfect moment and I could say shit happens sometimes. At times, we still argue and what we had tonight was really bad.

 “How come you’re always right, Sophia! Have I not done anything good!” I yelled. I was really mad and I can’t control the tone of my voice.

 “It seemed like you’re sick and tired of my attitude. Why don’t you just leave me then?” Sophia was sobbing. I rarely see her cry. She’s a very strong person and seeing her like that breaks my heart. I love her. I now I really, really love her.

 “Yes, I am very sick of your attitude! But that’s what you are. And I loved you for who you are Sophia” I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards me. I gave her a tight hug. She hugged me tighter. We were both angry yet by her hug, I could still feel how much she loves me. I have never felt this before. I have never felt being loved like this.

  “I’m sorry Drew”

   “It’s okay my dear. I am sorry for what I have done too”  I kissed her hand and knelt down. I grabbed something from my pocket. I saw more tears coming from her eyes as I showed her a box. It was a tiny red box with a golden ribbon.

  “Sophia, we’ve been together for a long time. What you’ve made me felt is amazing and I just don’t want to lose you anymore. I love you. I love you with all my heart. Sophia, my love, will you marry me?”

  She took a deep breath, wiped the tears from her eyes and looked at me. It took a minute or two for silence. She smiled and it was the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen. What came after is a moment that I could never forget, I have heard the sweetest words that I long to hear from her.

 “I will. I will Drew. I am more than willing to marry you my dear. I love you.”

   A year had passed and here I am, preparing for our big day. I now this is is the happiest day in my life and today, I will be the luckiest man on Earth. I was about to enter the church when I heard someone calling my name. I turned to look who’s calling. It was Jasmine.

“Hi, I just came to tell you that I’m happy for you. Best wishes! It’s a good thing that you’re really happy now. After all, you deserve that.”

 I do not know what to say. I do not even know why I felt this way. It seemed like my heart had gone heavy. I just took a deep breath and smiled.

“Thank you Jasmine.”

  She smiled but then a tear fell from her eyes. She turned away and I pulled her hand. What happened next was a mistake. A biggest regret that I should have not made. I just kissed her lips and the feeling’s unexplainable.

“Sorry Jasmine. I am sorry.”

“You did nothing wrong. It was my fault. I should have not been here anyway. I have to go.”

 With that, she turned away and what followed is the most unforgettable and most painful moment that had ever happened.

 “You’re lady’s the luckiest. Good luck to both of you.” She walked away.

  “Yes, she is. But that should have been... you”

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inspired by Justin Bieber's "That should be me"