What is the value of life?

   Some may consider this as a sign of evil. For others, it may be a symbol for poison and for most, it signifies death.

    But for me, I look at this differently. Skull for me signifies life, in relation with death and its value. And for what reason? That is simply through death will we realize the value of life.

   Like for instance, a sudden lose of someone. For most, that will be the only time that they'll realize how important that person was. How that person shared a big role in the neighborhood, or in the society. And what kind of person he/she was when he/she was still alive.

  Not only through other's death will we learn the importance of life. But as well as with our own experiences.

   Life may be hard at times, however, we must still know its significance. Simply because as long as we're still alive, we can still do things that we want, correct or at least, make the right decisions and explore more about it.

   Value life and just make the most of it everyday.

   After all, we can't do any of that if we're already cold and hard, right? ;)

I am a mustard seed.

 Just had my mass at Calamba church with the whole family. Perfect way to celebrate the father's day. 

 Well, the homily is really really good. It is about the parable of the mustard seed. In the story, the mustard seed is a very small seed and it takes a long time for it to grow. But, once it had reached it's maturity, it'll turn to large and strong plant/tree.

 I believe I could relate very well with the parable. My education is my seed and my dream is the tree. I have spent most of my life studying, from pre-school to college. I had my degree at the age of 21. And within those years, I worked hard to develop every aspects of my life to reach my goal/dream. 

 Now, I am nurturing the seed that I have planted which is my education. I am working my way to get what I really want. I could say that it's not that easy. It takes courage, strength and patience. I am just starting but I could already feel some pressure and hardships.

 But, I know so well that to reach it, I really have to go through different challenges.  And most of the time, I am praying. Praying to be positive and to be strong enough. My dream to become a hotelier, to have a restaurant and if fortunate enough, to have my own hotel is pretty impossible. But I know, in God's will, I will have it all. As long as I am firm with my faith, I know I can do it.

 Just like the sower of the mustard seed, he waited for a long time. Patience is really a must! But, in the end, he had what he worked for. I know God is good, I will also have what I am working for. 

WHEN LETTING GO IS THE HARDEST PART.

Goodbyes made you think.

They made you realize what you've had,

what you've lost,

and what you've taken for granted.

***

         Aside from having a decent job, the second thing that I thought was so hard to do, is to let go.

         Letting go of something you hold on for a long time. Letting go of something you had valued so much. Letting go of something you that made your day and night complete. Letting go of something, you never thought of giving up.

         But that is life, that is love. Sometimes, even the thing or person we thought we'll never loose can actually disappear in any unexpected place, and in any unexpected time. What's worst was when we knew all along that it has to go, yet we hold on to it. Even if it hurts us every single minute.

        But why is letting go so hard to do? Is there any easy way to move on and just forget the person? If it's love, then why is it hurting me so much?

         For sure, these are just some of the questions that are running to your mind. But the truth is, there will be no easy way to move on, and to let go. There is no such short-cut on forgetting someone.  However, thinking of the facts on why you should stop holding on to something will surely help. If it hurts so much, then why prolong the agony? If the reason why you're hurting is because somebody's taking you for granted, then why let this happen for a long time? If someone's cheating on you, then why still hold on to something you're calling a "commitment"?

         And one thing, you'll only know it's love when it hurts you. So accept the fact and just do what you have to. Never ever fail to think about yourself. This is the best way to let go and to move on.

         It's not bad to cry. To listen to the saddest, break up songs. And to reminisce what you had. But remember, somethings are worth giving up especially if it wasn't meant for you. There is ALWAYS more to life. God will always have his plans for you. So remember, life is very unexpected so better be ready with everything.

LET YOURSELF BE THE REASON.

 " I want to dieeeeee! Somebody shoot me please!" , 

***

  Oftentimes, we let our problems blind us. We fail to see the brighter side and look at life the other way around especially when our problem is about love.

  Truly, it's hard to push yourself to be strong and positive enough whenever something's bothering your tiny, broken heart. It's just really hard as no words could ever explain what you are feeling.

  Just like what somebody had said, "The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live." 

  It's like losing everything you have in an instant.

  What's harder is when the only one hurting is you.

   However, this should not matter at all. Life is unpredictable, today you'll see yourself happy as if you're on top of the world, then the next day, you could see yourself being dragged down to the core. Well, that's life!

  Think of it as a game that if you quit, you'll lose but if you keep on fighting, you'll see there's a bigger chance to win back everything you want. If not, everything you need and deserve.

  Let God's word enter not only into your ear but also into your mind and heart. I tell you, that's the best cure to your wounded heart. 

  Let your family be your source of strength and your friends, your inspiration. And finally, let yourself be the reason why you are living. Be thankful because you're still alive and breathing. Still had the chance to make everything right and find your true happiness.

  

REGINA BRETT'S LIFE LESSONS.

Regina Brett's 45 life lessons and 5 to grow on.
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Overprepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative - dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
49. Yield.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Totoo pala.

  Hindi ko na alam kung anong mararamdaman ko. Nakakapanghina lang isipin na ung taong akala mong di ka kayang mawala e kayang ka palang iwanan sa isang iglap lang. Siguro nga, may mga pagkakamali ako.Oo, maraming pagkakamali. Maraming bagay na pinalagpas. Maraming pagkakataong sinayang. Gusto ko mang ibalik, pero mukang wala ng magagawa.

 Cool off. Ayan ung hinihingi nya. Ibibgay ko naman e. Kahit masakit, kahit di ko kaya, para lang sa ikasasaya nya. Mahal ko e. Mag aantay na lang ako. Tanga na kung tanga. Mag aantay ako hanggang mapagod, hanggang maging manhid. Bahala na kung ano mangyare. Bumalik man o hindi. Kasalanan ko naman e. Kasalanan ko lahat.

  Kung bakit ba kasi naging bulag ako sa kung anong meron ako. Bakit ba kasi simpleng mgakahilingan lang diko pa napagbigyan. Kung nagawa ko lang, e di sana kami pa. Sana akin pa siya.

  Totoo nga pala ung sinasabi ng iba, na kapag nawala na, saka mo lang malalamn kung halaga nya.

  Mahalaga ka sakin. Sobra! Mahal kita, sobra sobra! OA man pakinggan pero parang ang laking parte ng nawala sakin ng mawala ka.
 

BUHAY KOLEHIYO NI CAROLINE.

Ilang buwan na lang at kung papalarin ay makakatapos na ko! Oo, masaya ako! Masayang masaya ako. 

Apat na taon din ako sa CEU at sa apat na taon. Marame ding maganda at panget na nakita, naramdaman at 

naamoy. :p

Kaya bago ang lahat, let’s make balik to nakaraan.

FIRST YEAR.

Naalala ko lang. Neneng nene ang mukha. Payat. Medyo sunog ang balat. (Kakagaling ko lang po kasi ng bakasyon). Kabado lalo na nung unang araw. Ang lagi kong sinasabi ay “parang I don’t belong”.

Pa’no ba naman kasi te, ung itsura ko naman sa itsura nila. Parang elementary na napadpad sa kolehiyo. HAHA!  Nakakaaliw lang din, iba’t ibang uri ng tao ung andito. My mga taga-probinsya, may taga-Manila. Dito mo rin maririnig ung mga kaka-ibang apelido, kaka-ibang pangalan at mga kaka-ibang kwento.

1-5

n  Grading system sa college. Astig!

AHRM1F

n  Yan ang kauna-unahang section ko. Okay naman ung mga kaklase ko. Di ako maimik non e, kaya wala din akong kaibigan. Di naman sa nahihiya ako, nakikiramdam lang talaga ako sa mga tao sa paligid.

ALGEBRA

n  May alergy ata talaga ako sa subject na to (second take ko nga ngaun ‘to e!). Di naman sa tanga ako sa Math, medyo lang tsaka, secret! :DDD Di ako bumagsak, ni U.D. ko lang talaga ‘to.

CUTTING

n  First time kong magawa ngaung college (pa’no ko naman ‘to magagwa nung high school? E kwadrado ung school ko non!)

MISS ILAS

n  Hindi ko siya makakalimutan. Nakakatuwa kasi. Si Ma’am. Mabaet and sobrang fashionista. Aside sa galing niya magturo, nakakaaliw pa ung porma nya.

SCANTRON

n  Salamat CEU at hindi na kailangan ng malalang pag-rereview! Ang kailangan lang gawin ay magdala ng lapis (preferably Monggol #2), at i-shade ng maayos ung rectangular box. Bawala maddin, bawal magbura. Ayos di ba?

SIR VICTORINO

n  Siya lang naman ang prof ko sa ALGEBRA! Alam na!!!!

SOCIAL ART

n  Naalala ko lang ung fashion show namin dati. Nakakatuwa! Nakakatamad lang din ‘to pasukan. WAGAS!

SUPLADA SLASH MASUNGET SLASH MATARAY

n  Kadalasang first impression sakin. Saklap di ba?

YES/S5/JACA

n  Tambayan after school and every Friday. Malalang bisyo ang natutunan pero madami namang kaibigan kaya keri lang. Haha!

YOSI

n  Bad sa health and breath yan kaya hangga’t maari, wag mo ng subukan! :D

SECOND YEAR

AHRM2B

n  Isa sa pinaka-masayang section ko. Ang kwela at ang gugulo lang po nila. Waging wagi lalo na ung tatlong hari sa classroom namely SJ, DIRK AND MARC.

AMPHIBIAN

n  Tropa kong the best! Sayang nga lang watak watak na. Pero okay lang, nakakausap ko pa naman sila.

BICOL TOUR

n  Ilang gabing patakas na nakikipag-inuman. Masaya lang sobra! Lasing ng bumabalik sa room. Masaya din ung mga sight-seeings and programs na hinanda. Syempre, UNG FOODS! Masarap lang sobra. Mahal man ung bayad pero sulit naman sa experiences and mem’ries.

FLAIR DANCE COMPETITION

n  Masaya! Sobra! Kahit na pagod almost everyday and di man lang nakakakuha ng any place for the award, worth it pa rin lahat.

ILOCOS TOUR

n  One of the best tour that I had. Sobrang ganda lang ng place and uung programs, palong palo. Naalala ko lang ung pag-sayaw ko sa gitna ng maraming tao. On the spot, nahihiya ako. Nahihiya talaga ako!

MISS LOPEZ

n  The best lang po siya sa peech class! Grabe lang ung galing nya mag-english, minsan natutulala na lang ako sa kanya.

REPTILES

n  Boy version nila Amphibian.

TOUR AND THEOLOGY CLASS

n  Naalala ko lang, andito ung first ever crush ko sa CEU! J))))

THIRD YEAR

WORST AND BEST-EST YEAR! Had lots of downfalls. Naging super broken slash wasted slash bitch ako. Pero keri lang. Sobrang saya lang ng experiences. I can say that this is the second best-est year ko.

BOYS

n  Sa totoo lang, eto ung taon na una kong nalamang may lalaki pala sa mundo. Haha!

BOHOL

n  Isa sa pinakamagandang lugar na pinuntahan namin. Malaparaiso ung tanawin. Asul na asul na dagat at ung infinity pool, ay nako! Waging wagi lang. Not to mention the boat ride and it’s luscious buffet. Sobrang heaven. Plus may harana pa while the boat is roaming across the river. Perfect dating place for lovers! Kaso, I was alone that time. I mean, walang lover boy pero okay lang. Dama pa din naman! J

FREEDOM

n  Finally! I had my freedom after 4 long years. Wala akong pinagsisisihan. I’ve learned a lot. Thank God!

LOUIES SAN JUAN

n  Si classmate slash crush slash kinaiinisan dati. (Sobrang ingay and kulet kasi!) Si new found LOVE.

TICKBOY’S

n  Tama ba ung spelling? Haha! Inuman na naman as usual. Anyway, eto ung restobar na kung tawagin. Masarap puntahan after class kasi di ganon kausok at kabaho ung lugar. Dito, marame-rame ding nangyare at nakilala. Saksi rin ito sa mga kalokohang pinaggagawa.

Naaliw ka ba? Osiya! Sa susunod na ung iba! :)